About a suicide attempt caused by imagined loss of prospect because of permanent psychophamacologisation (neroleptics, "schizophrenia"-medicalisation)

(Original Text is in German, this one is lightly modified. Translation: self. Its a text about a German situation)

US-american mental-health groups have declarde September to the "suicide-prevention-month" (source: Instagram). I very welcome this decision. I decided to join with the following text.

This suicide attempt the German psychiatric system has caused itself.

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As young adult I said to my parents, that I would or would have to make a psychoanalysis probably.
Before that I have been psychotical a few short times, maybe conditionally traumatically caused, maybe imposed from a technology, which I would call later "neurhypnotical weapon". The discussion is not interesting for me.

I moved back in the flat of my parents, after a community service (instead of military service) in another city.

Our family doctor lived in the same multiple-family-dwelling. One floor higher. And somewhen I have been taken surpirse with him. He has been standing in our flat and has been asking something. And, I should go to the psychiatrist and analyst Dr. med. Cäsar (name changed).

This Dr. med. Cäsar gave me the phone-number of another old psychiatrist and analyst, and found, that he would like to inject me a "depository neuroleptic." Thats a medicine against psychosises or "schizophrenia" which reduces itself little by little, so it has its effect suddenly for about four weeks.

As a good-natured person, I gave in.

The effects of such medicines on the mind are already distinctly feelable. They sedate, block, the mind is deaf somehow. Side effects, you need more sleep every day, your body-weight grows. Whole metabolism is deaf and slowed down somehow.

The phone number I used never. After that, I have been further medaclised.

Then I comlitted a suicide attempt. Because, from my point of view at that time, to live on would not bew worth it. The attempt, I broke off then. Maybe it was also imposed by a neurohypnotical technology.

With bleeding wrist, I drove with the public bus to Dr. med. Cäsar. My real patient's will would have been, that he would be dress the wound. And will letting me in peace for the future. Instead of, he handed me over to the closed psychiatric station of a near hspital.

There could treat me a Dr. med. R. (full name, not changed, in the German text-version), then young. He behaved later once cheeky criminal against me, and I want to use him once for the continuing of my description of that radio based hynotic, neurohypnotic and data-weapon, I made. (It's sometimes a difference between the "what" and "what, how" to tell). When knowing about that technology and its possibilities, the "what how" becomes easier to tell. The dark circles of human beings, which are allowed or "allowed" to film from space on my PC-screens, could already read it. Use paradigmatic. Lout.

I have to contnue on my descripion of this hynotic, neurohypnotic and data-weapon, this has preference. But now (20260917, 8 pm), I go to a bar.

Education, self-education, distance:
My favourite psychoanalyst is Gregory Bateson. "One" does not understand him maybe at the beginning also, but somewhen even so everybody.
"Cold war Freud" from Dagmar Herzog is a great namedropping, in which somehow absolutely all american analysts of the postwar-period appear, somehow, furthermore. Maybe You want to choose one of them, getting to know him textually.

From Lacan, I would advise to try him to read. But only, because he should be absolutely incomprehensible, if You haven't read Freud before. Lacans work is a great scientific comment of Freuds work, to classify as belonging to the french philosophical group of "structuralism."

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With broken-off suicide attempt you are seen here an there as betrayer. You say, it'i inversion of the facts. Not true.
With the claim self-analysis, You are seen here and there as sexual betrayer. At leftish college-students of the 80ies, or so. A cliché, They say, you would claim that only, for having sex with some, some more female students. Even not true. The lecture has been psychological need. My Bib stands.

I am in a situation, that I can claim quite very much. Also "sexual abuse between same old not-adults." This could diss some German "Feminists", who always are lamenting, that so little sexual crime is discussed publically in court.
Probably, I also can demand for dissing German Psychiatrists as secundary culprits.

I have three living wills (psychiatric living wills - In Germany there exists a person, who preformulated an (anti-)psychiatric will once. Decades ago). Two of these wills are satirically. The One: I do not speak any more to psychiatrists, only maybe for a lecture fee, which pay they at me. It is too simple, but: Those, who want something else from me: Criminal proceeding in both directions? Compulsory hospitalization, proceeding, in both directions? Simplified proceeding, "Yellow Letter"?

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I am a bit in doubt, if this text "works" in the US. Its for and against the German situation. There, it should be logical.